5/20 - Going to Sleep at 8:00

I never ever go to sleep before 10:00! Whether it's a weekday, weekend, or even if I'm sick. Yesterday I had a major headache, and I was lying in bed reading. It made my head hurt even worse and I just couldn't take it. I had tried reading with the lights out too but it was just too dark. I decided I just needed to keep them off and lay there for a little bit. Well... I ended up falling asleep. And this is not uncommon for me. I nap almost every day! But the difference was that I stayed asleep. I woke up at about 1:00 am and realized how late it was. At that point I was in no shape to get up and finish my homework, straighten my hair, and pack for the next few day. I decided to just go right back to sleep. I t felt so nice waking up in the morning after have a full 10 hours of sleep, and it wasn't even a weekend! I really think I needed that and I'm happy it worked out that way.

5/19 - Catching Up

I caught up on the season finales of One Tree Hill and Gossip Girl. That's it. A lot of people got shot. Intense.

(I'm a day behind and can't exactly remember this day...)

5/18 - A Night of Nothing with No Consequences

Nothing really happened yesterday. That seems to be a pattern on tuesdays... hmm I always like tuesdays. And I think this might be why. Of course I did have homework, and 2 tests to study for, yet I felt no pressure. The week was still just beginning but not the awful monday feeling. My only time pressure was to finish what I had to finish by 9:00 so I could relax and watch Glee while painting my nails. Well, I didn't finish. I basically did nothing productive the whole night. But the difference that made this a good this, was that I didn't feel so stressed about it!

I am not the type of person that can slack off in school and not worry about it. As much as I want to not care, and even try to not care, I always, always care. It gets very annoying! Especially when it wakes me up in the middle of the night with a nightmare about not having done my homework. Anyways, I did nothing, yet nothing went wrong. (and having completed the wednesday school day, I can tell you that it didn't affect me. I got my hw done during frees and no teachers ever would have guessed that I spent my night napping and watching Did you Hear About The Morgans? which was stupid but entertaining and cute)

Other Good Things of the Day

• Holly and Jake forgot to pick me up for school, so Stacy drove me and we had a surprisingly un-awkward car ride, talking about keratin treatments and car accidents
• 2 seniors jokingly went up to me and thanked me for having them over
• Had an un-awkward conversation about the party with Dylan and Phil in speech class
• Had pizza and a caramel apple for lunch (they opened a Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory in Cold Stone :)
• Got to go home and sleep in my own bed
• Didn't let Did You Hear About The Morgans? itunes rental expire

Btw, I'm pretty proud of the alliteration in the title of today's post

5/17 - Being Locked Out of the House

My dad decided that after the party, people would know we don't always lock our doors and therefore we need to get keys. Well he got these keys when I was not home and never gave me one. Guess what happened next? Yup, he locked me out... and then went to work. Well it was basically my first day of being grounded but instead of going home, I got to go to Holly's house and spend time catching up with her! Later that night I also found out that I get to sleep at grace's on saturday, haha! This grounding thing isn't really working out...

(love my Hollister :)

Other Good Things of the Day

• Talking to random people from the party
• Catching up with Dayna after not having seen her for months

5/16 - Relief

I woke up terrified to walk downstairs and see my father. I stayed in bed pretending I was asleep until about 7:40 when he knocked on my door. I didn't respond and he went away. Then he called me... I figured I couldn't ignore that too so I answered it and he told me to come downstairs and we were going to go get cleaning supplies from the supermarket. I get in the car still scared for my life, but a wave of relief washes over me as my dad starts to call every single person he knows and joke about the whole thing. This is what my dad does. It pisses me off, but I'd rather it be this way then be in huge trouble. We ended up stopping for bagels and somehow having a pretty nice morning.

After become comfortable around my dad, it made me even more scared to see my mom. All I was hoping was that she wouldn't cry. When she finally came, I walked outside and apologized. She hugged me, didn't cry, and told me that I was grounded for a month (but friends could come to my house) and I had to see a therapist 3 times. Honestly I was expecting so much worse and I wonder if my parents know that most kids would be dead in a situation like this. I don't know, but I sure as hell am not going to tell them!

Other Good Things of The Day

• Going to Home Depot with Nicole and trying to find a lock without any clue of what kind
• Poppy's 75th birthday brunch (3 hours long and bad food, but it was fun in the beginning)
• Basically no homework

5/15 - Good Cop

So basically I am a huge idiot. I threw a party. Everyone showed up. Got out of control. Cops came. Nothing was really good about this night (besides the following: made some friends, gained a cute purse that someone left, seniors told me I was pretty) but at least the cops were nice. Thats the best I can think of. Police are probably the scariest people ever, but they didn't yell at me and let me talk to my parents. I don't know, but I guess I'm just kinda thankful...

(a hilarious picture some guy took on his phone while the police man was taking down everyone's names)

Other Good Things of The Day

• My clothes got picked to put on our mannequin for my fit class
• Chipotle nomnomnom
• Reading Cosmopolitan with my girls
• I actually threw a party

5/14 - Playing Hooky

I have been super stressed lately, and ever since the car accident all I want is to be home. My mom wasn't going to be able to bring me home tonight if I went to school, and I didn't have a lot of classes...so she let me skip it. I spent the day catching up on tv shows, hanging out with Sabrina, and then going over to Sierra's with Jess. It didn't end up being that relaxing, but it was definitely nice to take a mental health day!

5/13 - Being Listened To

It's not that my friends don't listen to me, it's just that I talk too much for them to listen to all of it. I don't blame and I'm thankful for how much they put up with, but it is hard when I just wanna talk about nothing important and so they don't care. That's why I like making new friends. New people don't know a lot about you, so they always want to know more. You're like the shiny new toy that they can't get enough of.

Recently Sasha and I have become ver

y close. It was hard letting her into my life because I felt like she had replaced me when I moved, but now I love her. Today (5/13) we had to stay after school for a play rehearsal. It was a gorgeous day and we had about an hour and a half to kill so after we finished taking pictures for her photo assignm

ent we went up to a grassy hill and talked. We just talked for o

ver an hour straight about tons of things in our lives and it was so nice being listened to and have a 2 way conversation.

(and she let's me do her makeup hehe)

5/12 - Sister Telepathy

When I got home from school yesterday, I didn't have a lot of homework so I decided to make a youtube video. I hadn't put one up in a while and I had started filming one about a week ago and just never finished it after my package came in. So as I'm saving the video to itunes, I decide to watch some youtube videos.... what do I see as soon as I get to the youtube home page? My sister had just put up the exact same video I was about to upload. She started defending how she did it first, but I honestly didn't care. I just thought it was so funny how we actually had the exact same video on and the same day and genuinely had no idea the other one was doing it.

My sister and I are very close, but we definitely think differently. I'm trying to think of an example I can use to compare our completely different thought process' but they have absolutely no relation to each other so it's pretty

hard. We almost never think the same things, so I saw this as a funny, and kind of cool experience. (and I still uploaded my video too)

exactly the same back then....

Other Good things of The Day

• Got compliments on my hair (curled it with a straightening iron)
• I made my speech in class and it wasn't all that scary or bad
• Managed to finish all my homework even though I stalled until 8:30 before starting it

5/11 - Finn Hudson

Nothing particularly great happened. Nothing bad, but just nothing that good. Glee was on though, It's definitely my favorite show. Even though bad things happen on it, nothing seems all that bad. Everything is happy and fun. Plus singing high schools are like my favorite thing ever (Grease, High School Musical, etc) haha! ...Anyways, Finn is obviously my favorite character (although I do love puck too...like alot)! He has an amazing voice, he's adorable, and it's so cute how much he loves Rachel. Glee brought a little extra happiness to my day.

Other Good Things of the Day

• Went to school a little late, because I was cuddling with my mama
• My euro teacher checked all my homeworks, the day had them done
• Realizing some of the boys that make fun of me, don't 'get any'
• Mama got me a fish sandwich for lunch
• The cleaning lady came so when I got home my room was clean and my bed made

yeah, just not a very exciting day...

5/10 - Coming Home

Even though I only slept out for one night, after the car accident it made me really homesick. All I wanted was to be in my own bed, with all my stuff, and my mom nearby whenever I need her. I thought I was going to have to sleep out at least 1 more night before my mom fixed her license and was able to pick me up. Last period in school, she texted me saying she was getting it back today! I was so happy and it felt so nice to be back in our dollhouse.

(the house before we bought it, so it's a little different now)

Other Good Things of The Day

• Got compliments on my new shirt
• Ran into Julie getting lunch
• Napping - my one true love...

5/9 - Mother's Day

Yesterday was Mother's day. I used to get bored hanging out with my family, but I have come to appreciate them much more recently, and I always seem to have a good time when we all hang out. It was a fun day of family, food and just sort of relaxation.

I also thought a lot about how much I appreciate my mom. She truly does everything for me, and has mad me the person I am today. I am so glad I had her to balance out the bad parenting of my dad. I love her and want to make sure I never forget how much she does for me.

Other Good Thing of The Day

• Being the first to wake up, and laying in bed until I feel like getting up
• Cleaning my room - not a very fun thing, but it went by quick and I love having a clean room
• Granny's brisket and matzoh ball soup
• Sunday night slumber party with Nicole and Shinji

5/8 - Being Saved

After I got back from the city, I thought Jess was going to be picking me up from the train station. I got off at the Fairfield station instead of Southport so I could leave the city an hour earlier, and I would be getting a ride home.When I arrived in town I found out Jess had to work so i went to go visit her at Gofer Ice Cream.

When nobody was in the store, I got to catch up with Jess a little bit, but when crowds (including a bunch of freshman that were in my math class) I had to sit alone at a table eating eating ice cream like a loser. I was about to call a taxi, when all of a sudden my dad and Sabrina walked in. It was so random, but so lucky!

Other Good Things of The Day

• Woke up naturally at 6am - I love be an "early bird"
• Sat around and did nothing with Emily during class
• The sun came out
• My first car crash (not exactly a good thing, but I like experiencing new things. And nobody got hurt so it was ok)
• Laying in bed singing about diarrhea with Sabrina...and my mom
• Staying up late on polyvore.com with Sabrina

5/7 - Laryngitis

I know laryngitis is supposed to be a bad thing, but for me it's not. It is such a rarity so when it happens (and last's until I see real people) I find myself appreciating the attention it brings me, even if it's mostly teasing. I don't mind when people tease me, especially if it's something that i know isn't goi

ng to last for eve. It's fun to get that little extra attention and be special for a day or two...

I also love when my voice gets hoarse and screechy just because it is something different. It gets boring being the same ol' person everyday of my life, and this changes me. When I meet new people and talk to them with this voice, this is who they think I am. It's a new identity and its fun to play around with.

Other Good Things of the Day

• Boys who love boys (not necessarily gay, just more like a "bromance")
• - Nick, Coleb, Hunter, and Emerson were all very cuddly today, it was adorable, and I love that boys can be like this in my school and people don't call them gay or anything
• A senior guy waved to me - I'm not sure if it was serious or if he was making fun of me, but its still a little cool either way
• Going to Nicole's house when she's not home - Shinji and took the bus to Nicole's while she was taking the EHAP test and made ourselves a feast of mac n' cheese, crescent rolls, and brownies. Then 'liked' a bunch of embarrassing things from her facebook that she left up on her computer
• I finally got to hang out with Nicole; its been forever!
• Group Bonding
• Finding out 8th grade gossip
• Buying a ton of crap at CVS
• I got Grace addicted to pokemon
• Going to bed at 10:45 on a friday night